I can honestly say I know from first hand experince on how you feel. My mum passed away on May 19th, 2002. My DH posted the event of the C@-Board, and the out-pouring of love & support that I received helped me get thru a difficult time. Believe me when I say this, the pain does ease with time. No, you never get "over-it" and nor should you, she was and is your "Mum" and you will carry her in your heart and thought's daily until comes a time when you meet up with her again. There isn't a day goes by when I don't hold some conversation with my mum, knowing that she does hear me and is with me. Like yourself and all human beings, we just miss their "physical-presence", not being able to "pop-over" for a visit or even just to pick up that phone for a chatter. That's why I tell my DH and DD that, "I Love You" everyday, because our tomorrows are never promised. Take your time to mourn and grieve, and rest in the comfort knowing you are surrounded by friends here on the C@-Board. My thought's & prayers are with you. :angel